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Post by Catriona on Apr 18, 2004 6:59:17 GMT -5
*Smiles*
I'm doing very well. I have my son, the rest of my family- Satorius, my friends... I've got a place to stay, I'm well-provided for food and money, I'm at peace and it's a wonderful day.
*Nibbles on a chestnut*
I've got things to do and to think about, but that's alright. Keeps the body and mind busy. So how are you? You look much better than you did a while ago. I haven't thanked you for your trust, by the way.
*Smiles again*
So I'll do that now- thank you for sharing your name with me. It's an honour to be so trusted.
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Post by Elfhame on Apr 18, 2004 7:02:23 GMT -5
He smiled.
"Cat, you don't have to thank me for my trust. You're my friend. You trusted me enough yesterday when I took Tirith to the candy stall, too."
He put a few chestnuts at once in his mouth, chewed and swallowed.
"Hmm... good. Well, as for me, I guess I'm doing fine. Better than ever, I think."
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Post by Catriona on Apr 18, 2004 7:07:55 GMT -5
That's good to hear.
*Puts her hand on his shoulder for a while and smiles happily, then takes it off again and resumes eating chestnuts. When she is done, she throws the empty bag in a bin and sings softly*
Tolo, tolo a lilta ah nín, Tolo a linna ah nín and! Sír li lilta a linna a gladha, Sír cuil na maer, maer, maer...
*She looks up at the sky, closing her eyes against the sun, and smiles, enjoying its warmth on her face*
Do you think anyone could ever be tired of a day like this? Once you've seen a thousand- a million of these days- will you get tired of them?
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Post by Elfhame on Apr 18, 2004 7:13:13 GMT -5
He looked at her for a moment, studying her face. He was quick to realize what she was implying.
"I honestly don't know, Trink. I've got many, many years and days to go. I don't think I would get tired of days like this. Only of the other days that make life a miserable affair. But why do you want to know?"
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Post by Catriona on Apr 18, 2004 7:17:58 GMT -5
*Shrugs*
No particular reason... I'm trying to think of what it would be like to have a life as long as the sun and the stars, and even to outlive them- without the fear of death and judgement, but possibly also- without the realisation that what you have is something very special... perhaps life is more precious because it's finite?
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Post by Elfhame on Apr 18, 2004 7:27:21 GMT -5
He thought for a moment. He began to get an idea, but did not speak of it.
"It depends. I think it's more precious when it's finite. But that's just me. The end of life does not seem so bad to me, Catriona. I don't want to lead an eternal life full of strife, wars and battles and death. I only want to lead one... when I've got many good friends and someone very special."
He sighed.
"Ah, look at me! Spoiling this wonderful day with my gloomy prospects! Don't pay heed to me Catriona. Your song is right. It's a good day to sing, dance and laugh. Lets make the best out of this day."
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Post by Catriona on Apr 18, 2004 7:40:01 GMT -5
*Sighs*
Ah, but I do fear death- it will separate me from all I love. Suppose you could spend an eternal life being happy- would you end up being less happy? Do you think that you could get bored even of bliss?
*Walks on a bit, then sits down in the sun on a low wall separating the street from the courtyard of some office*
You're not spoiling anything, this question matters to me. If you don't mind discussing it, I would very much like to.
*Sighs*
Do you think it's unnatural to live forever? I think it probably is. But- is that inherently evil? I'm not sure. Some things I once believed in seem- well not wrong perhaps, but a bit different- I know there is no such thing as black and white in people, there are only shades of grey- and perhaps I should look at my beliefs in the same fashion.
*Runs her hand through her hair*
I will outlive my grandfather, probably. My friends- Julia for one, of course. But if I were to live for ever and ever... It is a strange thought.
*Smiles*
But if you don't want to talk about this, that's good too. We could go to the park.
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Post by Elfhame on Apr 18, 2004 8:00:28 GMT -5
"I don't mind talking about this. It's something that has been bothering me ever since I became a planeswalker."
He thought.
"Let's go to the park - more sunshine."
He paused, sighed again.
"I don't know if you can get bored of bliss, Catriona. I suppose that after a long time of hapiness - a very, very long time - everything becomes routine and normal. You can only experience hapiness, I believe, if you've also experienced the worst thing that can happen to you. Then you can accept it for all it's worth. I don't think you, or me, for that matter will ever get tired of hapiness because we know what the other extreme is, and thus appreciate it all the more."
He thought about for a moment, eating the last of his chestnuts.
"Yes death is something to fear when you've got many friends. To be honest, I don't want to look into the future because I'm afraid I will get seperated from a very good friend."
He looked at her for a moment, a sad smile on his face.
"I don't think eternal life is unnatural. The gods live eternally. I lead an eternal life, and it happened naturally. Some species live eternally. There is only one thing unnatural, and that's not to die. It's one of the first lessons I learned when I came to Terisia. Everything dies. The gods die and mortals or other celestials replace them. Planes die, and other planes take their places. Even death dies in the end, and other death takes it's place."
He threw the empty chestnut bag away into a nearby bin.
"Cat, you should know that if you live forever together with Satorius, one of you will die one day. It's something that will happen. And think that might place a shadow over the rest of your years. If you can have many years of hapiness, then in the end there will be many of sorrow as well."
At her last words, he gave that sad smile again.
"As I said, it's something I spent a lot of time thinking about. It will happen someday though. Keep that in mind."
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Post by Catriona on Apr 18, 2004 8:20:33 GMT -5
*She gets up from her wall and slowly walks towards the park with him*
True- and knowing us, magnets for trouble that we are, bliss will never be prefect for long. There will always be problems to solve- and even that, coming in waves throughout eternity...
*Frowns slightly*
And yet... Yet there is some attraction in the idea. To feel what I feel when I see Tirith- when I see Satorius- hold on to that- that's a comforting thought.
*Smiles*
But death is part of the cycle. My teachers used to tell me that when you die, flowers will grow on your grave and you become a full part of nature- some of the greatest Kuruni I've known used to smile at funerals, because they did not perceive it as a sad thing. It makes me happy to think you would miss me, but- well they would never mourn anyone's passing- I can't ask that of you though while I know I'm not there myself- not by far.
*Thinks*
Yes... Everything dies- everything but life itself. Somehow, that is indestructible, the one thing that governs. So perhaps you're right- perhaps if life is eternal, and so many things live for so long- why shouldn't I? Yet I can't help but wonder what the teachings would say. I don't even believe they consider the possibility, actually, such an outlandish, completely alien idea...
*Nods*
I know that such is possible- he has died before... But- I don't know. When faced with an eternity of sorrow that cannot be helped- then couldn't I end that myself? Or- perhaps- find some way to restore happiness- with eternity on your hands, you're bound to find one sooner or later.
*They reach the edge of the park*
You will never die, Elfhame? I will never need to miss you then. That is a good thought.
*Smiles at him*
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Post by Elfhame on Apr 18, 2004 8:34:22 GMT -5
He smiled.
"If you want to live forever, of course. It's a big decision, Trink. It's good that you try to talk about it. I guess in the end it's all about the person you are and the life you lead. As for me... I would rather die in seven hundred years if my friends did. I don't think I could carry on without you - them. I guess I want to live just as long as my friends - and perhaps... someone special. But that is unlikely."
He relished the sunshine, and looked at the clear blue sky.
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Post by Catriona on Apr 18, 2004 8:44:28 GMT -5
I'm not sure I want to. It seems such a- an unreal thing. And to make that decision for another is even stranger.
*Smiles*
Ah well. I'll see.
*Laughs*
You have a very long time and you're a very special boy, Elfhame. You'll find someone special to share your life with someday.
*Smiles encouragingly and leads him into the park*
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Post by Elfhame on Apr 18, 2004 8:49:57 GMT -5
She leads him into the park, but he hangs back for a moment.
"Boy?"
He sighs.
"I hope so."
He follows and catches up with her.
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Post by Kaitan on Apr 20, 2004 15:45:51 GMT -5
He walks out of the Inn, his hood covering his face. He walks quickly up the street until he finds a lower-class residence. He opens the door and slips in, a ghastly grin on his face.
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Post by Sin on Apr 27, 2004 18:39:10 GMT -5
*steaping out into the streets sin looks to his left and then walks down the road to his right*
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Post by Merestil Haye on Apr 30, 2004 13:23:35 GMT -5
* Leaving the church he looks around, orienting himself to the slightly changed skyline, then begins to jog around the park, heading towards the Caleria borders and the Centre. *
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